Stay Strong

#317
3rd April

Feeling depressed for the past few days.

As I said already, the first term ujian's condition is 不乐观, most of the subjects are in grade 'B', and the subjects are absolutely passed (Passing marks is 60).

The strange thing is, the subjects that I can handle mostly got 'B', and the subjects that I don't have confidence to get higher marks got grade 'A'. 

You know, what was in my mind that this may be a vicious circle, time took me back to Form 2.

Form 2, I'm not one of the top students in the class 2TA5, but for the first-term ujian, I magnificently got high marks that I never got before during Form 1. 

My friends who were better than me (in terms of form ranking) got worse, and some of them were behind me by that ujian.

This made them shocked and me too, I don't even know that this is just lucky or my real strength.

Upon that ujian, many friends said me ampia that kind of things.

Even Form 3 and Form 4, somehow my achievement was quite unstable, but I always mentioned by other friends as one of the top students.

This time, I just dropped much than before, the lowest average mark for all examinations.

I felt the depression when ppl who are said to be very good suddenly became that worse, I mean worse than other ppl who are not that really good.

Meaning to say that this condition happened on me this year, like what had happened on my friends in Form 2.

I always remind myself that I'm not one of the best, but when many good things came in front of you, you may forgot what you had promised to yourself, and when bad things come over, it maybe a strike.

I struck, and now I realized, work hard is one of the way, but work smart is the most important way.

I'm sure that I'll be one of the students who dropped in this ujian.

But wait, first-term exam, I think I will regain my confidence, and then show my real strength again.

I believe in hope and fate, but I'm more believe in myself, this strike didn't make me falter.

Stay strong, study smart, and I should learn how to leisure.

The announcement of the on-hiatus post will be published in the next post.

Stay tune.

Bye :)