Chapter 366

#499

31st December

2016 is going to an end soon and apparently, I'm not in the festive mood as what I thought because I had no invitation at all as usual, this year.

So, basically, couching at home, staring at the PC like a nerd is what I'm doing right now.

Well actually not quite that boring though, as this morning I went to Balik Pulau with my mum by bus for a small walk.

Yupe, honestly, this is the fourth time to visit Balik Pulau this year, quite amazing huh?

Alright, some words to leave before going into 2017.

2016 was being a year of change.

A lot of changes around me though, but that's too much to talk all of them. People change, attitude change, environment change and the most importantly, the world change.

The choice of selecting the path to enroll Form 6 is no longer a doubt anymore.

Instead, I'm quite confident that even at last, I did not get what I'd expected, the fact that Sixth Form life is amazing, is always true, and I will never regret about it.

From the endless cycles of Ferris Wheel, to the joyful, nerve-wracking ride of rollercoasters, that made the present me that supposed to be.

Eventually, I gained a lot.

I experienced what supposed to be went through.

I fullfilled what supposed to be hoped.

I accepted what supposed to be faced off.

I given what supposed to be remembered,,,

There are lots of thanks and cheers to be lied down in 2016, forever.

One by one would take a long time, but a single line, with simple words, could drawn a perfect ending for the moments of everything.

I had lost too much for the past few years, and I learnt to grab them tightly, so close to my chest, hope that the warmth could melt down the chillness of the pride, ego wall.

Somehow, things are like hot/cold pack, it will return to the room temperature.

Following decisions, keep it, or let it go? Usually, I think, most of us would just keep it, but I decided to let go.

The decision is made. I let them go, they gave me the warmth, which will be always stay in my heart,

When the clock strikes, it's time for me, to use my heart, provide the warmth to others who surrounding us.

It is always burning, chilly rains couldn't stop, the heartbeat is always steady, and no matter how much spikes or bullets just slashed through it, it is still pulsating.

What if, you couldn't hold the pain? 

Don't forget, the people who love you, the people who helped you, are those who are always in your memories.

They are the reason why we live for. Even though you should for yourself eventually, in fact, you live for them at least for a moment, giving all of you to them, and spending won't hurt.

From a brighter side, it's you, yourself, to do what you want to do.

There're always voices around you, directing you, but keep in mind, always follow your heart, and that's it.

At last, I represent these words to myself and to anyone who see this.

Wish us have a great year in 2017.

No matter how, or what comes into our life, just go with it.

Perhaps, they are the one that could change us...

...As a better person in the new year.