Chandelier

#485

30th September

(Source: ART, CHANDELIER, GOLDEN, LIGHTS, PHOTOGRAPHY, VINTAGE, http://favim.com/image/217554/)

A hit song released in 2014, that made everyone knows her.

Yupe, judging from the title, it's nothing else but the hit song "Chandelier" by Sia.

Noticed that the most spectacular part is in the chorus, where she used a long high pitch to express her feelings in the song.

Shameful, despair, tough, sorrow...

Well ya, in spite the first time watching the MV, no one could know the meaning of this song by judging from the irrational choreography of Maddie Ziegler. 

All in all this song left some confusion for me watching through the MV, thinking what is this song about? 

Of course, you could Google it and there're lots of different interpretations.

Well, to end the last post of September, I think I want to present my view on this song.

So, basically the first part of the song, is more about alcoholism at a party, where the lyrics depicts a part "I push it down, I push it down", that she pushing herself for drinking alcohol.

Midnight, she's opened for calling, where people invited her out and phone calls non-stop, that made her felt that those people gave her love.

Then, at the chorus, "I'm gonna swing from the chandelier, from the chandelier". 

At this part, why there's a chandelier?

Mostly this chandelier might refer to the fun, pleasure moment. It might means wealth too, but at the same time, if we look from the word "swing", it may also means the unstable relationship, that this love would crush at anytime.

So, what I think is that she is trying to hold on the relationship, the pleasurable things in her life.

"I'm gonna live like tomorrow doesn't exist, like it doesn't exist."

"I'm gonna fly like a bird through the night, feel my tears as they dry."

The next line it might be to hold on that particular night, fearing of losing everything, but it still can't be hold on.

The night is like the darkness of life, flying in darkness, creating loneliness, depression and shame.

"But I'm keep holding on for dear life, won't look down, won't open my eyes."

"Keep my glass full until morning light, cuz' I'm just holding on for tonight."

"Help me I'm holding on for dear life, won't look down, won't open eyes."

"Keep my glass full until morning, cuz' I'm just holding on for tonight, on for tonight."

At the end, she gave up. At this point, she regrets everything she does and the faulty relationship.

Uncovering mistakes are impossible, that she'll just holding on for that night only.

Well, this is just my little interpretation, no copyright on anything lol.

Feel free to hear this song below here, it's really a great song, and guess what? This is one of my favourite songs for sure, but the pitch is too high that I can't get up lol.

And that's the end of September, three more months to the end of 2016!!!

October, here we go!

No Risk No Gain

#484
27th September

So, happy birthday to Google~ And also celebrating the partial "freedom" for me right now lol.

Yupe two days of trial just ended like so fast that I thought there will be more to go.

But then, we went through 6.5 hours of struggling lol... 

We still have the fear, as we can't repeat, and pressure too, as some of they still have to prepare for Sem 1 and Sem 2 repeat papers.

I should considered myself fortunate for no repeating, as I didn't think that much at all. Well, just a small fall in Sem 2, that I just have to repeat one paper only.

This time, all forces had to be transferred out as much as I can.

The time's ticking and my pen's flying through the paper (especially PA) lol...

Well, about one more month to go, and that would be the last second chapter of my secondary school's life.

Digression

As people said "No risk, no gain", as I'm close to pursue for this dream, I'm going to risk for another event.

Well, the condition is particularly close enough, it's just that even I had took the risk and overcame it, I may lose something else still.

This risk is so dependent on the most vital factor, that I hope that it will never happen, but there's still a little probability of happening.

I cannot let this dream go off, in case this is too important for me and I have to take this only chance.

I guess, I don't have much faith with them, if unluckiness fall, I may think I'll just accept it as well.

I still have that stamina, for my dream, and for another event, they are very close to each other, and that depend on my luckiness, that I could catch up to attend another event which can be considered a memorial.

So... I'll take the risk, and no matter what, hope that the action of taking this risk pays off, and gain what should I have.

Hint 6:

Last Trial

#483

19th September

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Hello and welcome back to my blog again.

If you seen this line right now, that means I'm still not ready for the trial lol.

Absolutely, the trial is coming, next week... And, I had forgotten to remind myself that I should do revisions everyday as usual, cut off the time on computer...

Ya nothing works then, it seems like I'm overdosed.

At least, that's not the worst, the recovery rate is still catching up, as the topics had been revised times to times, and the focus is on exercises.

Hope still can handle it well, guess what? This is the ever last trial exam in my CLHS life!!!

I mean, those exclamation marks didn't mean excitation, but rather a sigh, as unpredictably I am going to end my sixth-form life in CLHS, and forward to the next, higher level.

Gonna miss the schooling days so much...

Alright, em so... School reopened and that's obvious, the ordinary schooling days are still going on.

But just one thing is that yesterday I didn't participate the blood donation campaign.

The reason... Not I'm scared, but I do not want to faint at that time.

Yup, my biological clock is disturbed so badly that I slept after 12.30 am almost everyday during the holidays week.

That means, my liver is not going to function well and if I give off my blood, I'm sure faint right on the spot lol.

So, for sake life I did not go to school for the campaign, but sure in future there are much more of this campaign that giving me chances to save people's life.

Right, as exam is going so close soon, I would say that I will not be blogging until next Tuesday.

So, basically there is no such on hiatus anymore on this blog as the period is quite normal.

Well, see then, bye~~

Holiday?

#482
12th September

Halo, I know it's holidays but no extra rest is allowed as trial is coming soon...
No matter how I'm not quite sure am I lazy or not, I couldn't how forceful is the pressure, that might be building up later then?
We are near to graduation, one last step ever to leave our school's life.
No more school's life, but welcomed a university's/college's life.
It seems like when you are growing older, time goes on faster too.
No idea, I'm just cannot predict what can I do, or probably I would just make it a question mark first.
Hmm... I'm quite less of idea on what to write now, well today I'll just leave a blank only, probably I will post longer post next time.

Digression
As I mentioned before, I will post another hint about my dream in this holiday, so here is it:

Hint 5:

I'm supposed this is not the most obvious hint ever , yet it somehow related to other hints.

I guess if you could figure this out right now I would praise you as much as I can.

Guess what? I think not much of people would know what am I relating to with the picture above, but soon after I revealed it, most of you will "Ohhh~~~".

Watch more TV, you will find the answer.

Ferris Wheel

#481
4th September

(Source: "Ferris Wheel 3" by debsch, found at www.rgbstock.com)

This is the first post in September, as yes I would try to make any post meaningful as well.

So, this time, just a little rewind and another reflection about current situations.

No dream hint today, as I would do it during holidays lol.

Wondering when you are going to a funfair, what catches your eyes first?

Yup, it is nothing else but the giant round shape wheel that spin with its light circulating the dark sky.

Ferris wheel, as always, a well-known machinery that provided us a great view of our city for past decades.

I had a long time didn't ride on it though, but I had remembered that once entering a carriage, I had wished for the time that the wheel will stop at the highest for me.

It does for everyone, but then it will descend, and keep repeating the same circular motion.

I don't really talk much such a sensory post, but somehow my mind just told me to do so.

In my past, I had rode this Ferris Wheel for about 4 years, an uprise, climax and descend.

What am I talking about is friendship.

You see, as I said before, I was quite an annoying person, that left a lot of people felt uncomfortable or irritated about me.

But I haven't had that thought of introspection, and that's the reason why I did not done any much improvement in myself.

Every year, lost a bunch of friends, hoping to seek more the next year, but then things keep continuing in the following years.

At the end, after SPM ended, I was told by a friend that I am really annoying...

...And this is the start of a new person, death of a villain.

Even though that sounds particularly sad, but indeed I think this is what should I'd been taught for such a long time.

Fortunately, I still have other friends who still okay with me, yet the only reason is I didn't make silly mistakes on them.

This is why, I had stuck in this Ferris Wheel, and keep attempting to look for the greatest view in each round, but things just gonna descend then.

3 months of waiting for my results, I went for part-time job and tour, and that made me introspected a lot.

Knowing that I didn't get a place in Matriks, I was quite happy and relieved, mainly two reasons.

One is I wished to study Form 6 for a better pathway in future, another one is to keep away myself from the same group of persons that I felt sorry for.

Even though I got the application for the second call, but I refused, it's just the second reason, and also I had made a strong decision to continue Form 6.

I know the consequences then, again new friends and new environment, especially most of them are really different from me, which in turn they brought me out from the Ferris Wheel, and together, go for a roller coaster ride.

At first, in a new class, I was quite refused to talk much in class and didn't much interrupt anyone's topic, as I was afraid to repeat the same mistakes.

But things just get different then, it's just because I am an excellent person to them.

Like, they had finally meet a god.

I'm not bragging myself though but after a small quiz, I was flooded with questions and requests to teach them.

What I thought is normal to myself could be so excellent for them.

This was never ever happened in my past secondary life.

Since then, after I had found out the close-up, I had changed quite a lot on myself.

I had become happier, thoughtful, organised and braver.

I learnt quite a lot from them, which they thought me how should I being a person, not just a exam machine that regurgitate notes.

Indeed, they are very excellent in co-curriculum activities and at the same time, work hard when studying, even though they don't get the results that they wish for.

There's a lot of outings then, and I had become more socialised.

And also because of my parents who allowed to let me partially "free", I had no longer stuck in that Ferris Wheel.

Instead, life's going on like a roller coaster, there are ups and downs.

I didn't want to see anymore great view, I just want to experience every thrill in every inch of the track.

Moreover, most of them are very okay with the jokes (not very over jokes of cuz') I made to them, and they just laugh or just make white eyes (翻白眼).

Until now, the curse had gone, no one felt that I'm annoying or felt irritated to me.

I could just see my previous posts, quite much of them are the activities that I had participated with my current friends, and there's more soon!

So, why just sitting here and doing nothing, fill up your life with bunch of activities and keep it young, as I planned to do something during prom night, as a memory, as a closing ceremony for my meaningful Sixth-Form life.

If you the one who had stuck in the same Ferris Wheel as me, it's time to get out now.

Look, there are so much roller coaster's seats for you to ride on, and it's always free.

In the end, thanks for reading such a very long post.

Have a nice day~ :)