Unbreakable

#516

30th July

(Source: www.dianawilder.blogspot.com)

It's the end of July and tomorrow is the end of my working days.

Well, thinking of it, would I have heavy heart leaving there? Honestly, I may answer "Maybe", since I always know that there's no exact goodbye.

A leave proposes a hello next time, sometime, somewhere.

So, yeah, I'm truly satisfied with the days here, at least I spent more than half of year to replenish all of my old knowledge. I think that's what the benefits of doing this job.

Although my cells had died a lot of times (yeah that happens when you got seriously angry), but at least I managed it very well. Leaving that uncontrolled would be terrifying.

Luckily, I had a new partner recently, he finished his uni's Year One, and works temporarily for August only.

Yup, after going through SPM and PT3, there's no need too much teacher to handle the rest.

Alright, it seems like I never telling anyone about something tragic that happened last week.

So yeah, the week before last week, on Wednesday night, my grandmother passed away.

It's tragic to see her passed away in front of me, all of the emotions just brought up from nowhere.

I'm not sure what should be the feelings, but tears can't roll down, with the fact that I should cry.

But one thing for sure, my grandmother passed away peacefully, and that's what I really know.

She's the one who look through my growth, for 20 years, that's the unbreakable bond.

A funeral was held, simple but enough to show our love to her.

Everything's here seemed end, but love is forever, yet she didn't manage to see me graduate from university, and that's a regret to me.

Well, to be honest, I hold my tears and try to smile at her. If she sleeps with a smile, I know that she also wants us to be live happily too, right?

So, I don't want to cry in front of her, a simple smile, a simple thanks, and... goodbye grandma, wish you live happily as us too, we promised...

Okay, that's it. 

The moment of truth is coming soon, which is this Thursday!

I can't say that I'm really prepare for the results, but not sure whether luck still by my side or not.

Will I get the one that I wish? I'm not pretty sure, but I do still believe in fate, I follow what offers to me.

So, I think we'll see then.

I will talk about it too on here.

Bye~