Unbreakable

#516

30th July

(Source: www.dianawilder.blogspot.com)

It's the end of July and tomorrow is the end of my working days.

Well, thinking of it, would I have heavy heart leaving there? Honestly, I may answer "Maybe", since I always know that there's no exact goodbye.

A leave proposes a hello next time, sometime, somewhere.

So, yeah, I'm truly satisfied with the days here, at least I spent more than half of year to replenish all of my old knowledge. I think that's what the benefits of doing this job.

Although my cells had died a lot of times (yeah that happens when you got seriously angry), but at least I managed it very well. Leaving that uncontrolled would be terrifying.

Luckily, I had a new partner recently, he finished his uni's Year One, and works temporarily for August only.

Yup, after going through SPM and PT3, there's no need too much teacher to handle the rest.

Alright, it seems like I never telling anyone about something tragic that happened last week.

So yeah, the week before last week, on Wednesday night, my grandmother passed away.

It's tragic to see her passed away in front of me, all of the emotions just brought up from nowhere.

I'm not sure what should be the feelings, but tears can't roll down, with the fact that I should cry.

But one thing for sure, my grandmother passed away peacefully, and that's what I really know.

She's the one who look through my growth, for 20 years, that's the unbreakable bond.

A funeral was held, simple but enough to show our love to her.

Everything's here seemed end, but love is forever, yet she didn't manage to see me graduate from university, and that's a regret to me.

Well, to be honest, I hold my tears and try to smile at her. If she sleeps with a smile, I know that she also wants us to be live happily too, right?

So, I don't want to cry in front of her, a simple smile, a simple thanks, and... goodbye grandma, wish you live happily as us too, we promised...

Okay, that's it. 

The moment of truth is coming soon, which is this Thursday!

I can't say that I'm really prepare for the results, but not sure whether luck still by my side or not.

Will I get the one that I wish? I'm not pretty sure, but I do still believe in fate, I follow what offers to me.

So, I think we'll see then.

I will talk about it too on here.

Bye~

Inconstancy

#515

16th July

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It's the mid of July, and I still have 11 working days yet before my leaving.

Hmm, wouldn't be too old to say retirement by the mean time?

Well, that's not important, but no doubt that things are going to change so soon, and I'm pretty sure that I gonna miss a lot of thins after then.

Before the new chapter goes on, I would like to say something important today.

Yes, regarding to the entering of university, I may know the enrollment results in August.

So, by then, I'm not sure where am I going and how will I be.

Especially time, the management might not be too simple, as well as my schedule may go inconstant then.

Which mean, I may not update my blog as often as I did.

Even though I really love blogging, but things may change after some time.

I never thought that I could be so committed on a single matter for more than 6 years.

This is nothing but quite a surprise to me, honestly.

And now, I'm too distracted by unknown, and walked upon it.

No matter what, this blog is still my place, my very own place and my only asset these years.

It seemed like I have fate with blog, until forever.

So, guess what? I'm quickly made up my mind, and decided to update my blog not very often, but at least try to make it alive once a time.

You see, even though there's no changing on the number of followers, but I still continuing as if this webpage is my life that rooted in my heart.

I'll see you in August, maybe? But we'll definitely meet again.

Not too long, but not too short enough to say another hello again.

Bye~